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I wish I wasn't born in the first place.
I wish I was dead now.

Why must I go through this for my whole life?
Why me?
Why not them?

I'm naive.
I'm innocent.

I've never wanted this.
I've never dreamt of this.

Oh God.

Why am I _____?
Why am I not like others?

Oh God.

Why?
I'm all alone.
No one.

P/S: DON'T EVEN THINK OF CALLING MY MOBILE OR HOME OR EVEN TALKING TO ME IN MSN. LET ME SAY THIS FOR THE LAST TIME, I WANNA BE ALONE. GET IT?

DEAR FRIENDS AND READERS,

I WILL BE AWAY FROM THIS WORLD. DON'T WORRY I'M STILL ALIVE. SORRY IF I DON'T REPLY YOUR SMS-ES OR ANSWER YOUR CALLS FOR THIS PERIOD OF TIME. I JUST WANNA BE WITH MUHAMMAD SHAZALI BIN SABTU, THAT'S MYSELF. I WOULD LIKE TO APOLOGIZE IF I DID HURT YOU GUYS DIRECTLY OR INDIRECTLY, WHETHER PURPOSELY OR ACCIDENTALLY.

I LOVE YOU GUYS. MUACKS!

XOXO,

SHIZARI CAREY.

Hey darlings! I miss my 7 Princess. Haha. And my BryanBoy. I'm really sorry guys. I'm so busy. I'm really busy. I've don't even have time for myself.

First, I was busy preparing for exams. Haha. And after my last paper, I start working already till today. No rest. 8hrs daily. Haha.

How I wish I could rest. But no. I don't want to rest. I wanna work till attachment. Then 1 week rest and maybe start school again. Honestly, I'm not really excited for this coming attachment. How I wish I could escape. Haha.

I wanna make my blog private lah. Some people in my links are so hypocrite. They are just putting up on act, like, "Hello Shizari! How are you?" But in deep in their heart is like, "Hey Bitch! Haha. How are you? You should be dead by now, slut. You motherfucker asshole." I don't want to name them. I don't want to embarrass them.

I'm not thinking negatively but I got my own sources, okay.

I miss my significant other. Its been a long time since we met and spend time together. I think I'm too busy. I should make time for everyone. Haha.

Okay, that's it. Just a short update. Muacks! Flying kisses for my 7 princess. Catch it!

Valentine is like so long ago. But I have to update. Haha. Me and my significant other when for dinner. I fold stars for him. 1 bottle of stars. Haha. Luckily I have my beautiful princesses to help. Haha.

It was my 1st time celebrating Valentine. Haha. I will always remember that day. Hehe. Went for a stroll. They were setting up for the Chingay Parade. At the Esplanade Park, there were fairs and shows, put up specially for Chingay. Nice. I love it.

My 1st Valentine was simple yet sweet.

The cupcakes were delicious. Mine was Oreo cream, his was Mocha. Haha. I love it.

The new haircut. Hehe. Styled by me using Gatsby moving rubber. Hehe. That's all.

Hey. Its been so long since I last updated. But who cares? This is my blog. If anyone don't like it, just fuck off. Haha. Only good people deserves to be here. I'm a friendly boy who loves everyone who loves me. So if you wanna be bitchy to me, I'll make sure, I'll burn your ass off. I'll make sure, I'll stuff hot melted dildo in your mouth since you like to use too much vulgarity to the wrong person or the wrong time.

Oh come on, am I so popular to the extend that strangers are talking about me. HAHA! Good. Keep talking about me. 'Coz one day, you will stop. I know some people have been labelling me as a boyfriend stealer and spreading my personal life stories to everyone that he know. I'm just waiting for the right time to confront you. Just wait and see. I don't need backups like you do.

For the info of you motherfucking bitches, I ain't a boyfriend stealer. Haha. When I heard about that, I laughed and felt shocked. 'Coz, why would people bother to label me when they don't know the whole story even if you're the closest to me at that point of fucking time. Haha. People break up coz they want it to happen. Not me. I'm not god. If they still love each other, then why would break up occur. I hate making enemies. I love to make friends. The more friends, the better.

I think better stop spreading and gossiping about me. Haha. Why not, just publish it at local newspaper. Wouldn't it be much better. Less effort, more people know. And when they see my face, they will like say, "Hey! Are you the boyfriend stealer? Gosh, you face are all over the papers. You're so famous. I also wanna be a boyfriend stealer, so that I can be famous like you."

Haha. Damn fucking funny. Sometimes I just wonder. Maybe people are jealous of what I have now, like I don't the perfect figure but yet I'm happier than you. Haha. So it shows that, happiness comes from the heart. What is important is the heart.

I don't need high class divas to be my friends. I just need friends who are there for me when I need them. And I have more than 1 friend who are always by my side.

And please ya, be yourself. Take care of yourself, don't bother about others. Love yourself, if not I can help you. That's all. Sorry for if this is rude.

Hey guys. This week have been quite busy for me. Study and study. Hehe. I hope for the best for my upcoming exams. Wish me, alright.

Yesterday, I went to study at Toa Payoh Library. After lunch, walk around HDB Hub. I didn't know there's a HDB-so-called-musuem. Haha. I love the place. Feel like in the National Heritage Centre. Haha. Here are some photos taken at the building.

Here is the kitchen in the 60's.

The dining table. So vintage. Hehe.

I love this. Super retro. Its the 80's.

TV in the 80's. So cute. Hehe.

Cabinet in the 80's. Look at the phone. Hehe.

Today, Feli & me studied together at NLB. We had lunch and walked to NLB. I love the achitecture of the buliding. So nice. Feli love the lift. And we went to highest storey, then to Basement. LOL. Hehe.

Hehe. That's all.

To ANONYMOUS,

Hehe. Thanks for the comments. You have the courage to insult me but why you didn't enter your name. I appreciate if you put your name. Just for your info, my looks and voice are from God. So you're not insulting me but you're insulting God's creation. I hope you are aware of that. Thanks for tagging me although I don't know who you are. Hehe.

Miss Paris Hilton, once said, "You can be considered FAMOUS, if you have people hating you. Coz' they are just plain fucking jealous of what you got."

So, thanks for hating me, coz its means I'M FAMOUS! Hehe. MUACKS!

I just wonder what I got that make people jealous. I don't look like a million bucks. And I'm not rich.

Bought shades coz my eyes can't stand the glaring sun. So bright that can make me blind. LOLX. Nice? Hehe. I'm so not myself. I don't blog like this. Haha. But some ppl love to show off. I also want to show off. Haha. Only 1 word, please be original.

Gong Xi Fa Cai. Hehe. I also had reunion dinner, supper and more of reunion soon. My prepared a korean style BBQ for the family. Super delicious. I just love the sizzling of the pan. Hehe. I think I ate quite alot. Its okay. Once in awhile. Its was a wonderful meal. Thanks MUM! Muacks!

I can't believe it. The streets so empty. I can even count with my fingers. Haha.

My holidays quite fun. Went with my significant other to town. We planned to watch movies. But crowded. FULLY BOOKED! LOLX!

Sometime I just wonder why some people have the heart to hurt others who are innocent and naive.

Hehe. I miss school. Miss my princesses. Muacks!

Let the photos do the update. Hehe. Had lots of fun celebrating Claudia, Shabbana & Hui Mei Birthday.

I'm back to blog.

I was preparing to tuck in when suddenly, TADAA! a melody comes to my mind. I quickly hummed and record it. I'm just finding time to write the lyrics.

Last Saturday, when out with my friends. Hang out around Esplanade and when to Lau Pa Sat to eat SATAY! Hehe. I love Satay.

While at Esplanade met Bryan, Di & I'in. So cute. Hehe. Nice to meet them.

Seriously, Esplanade is so packed. So many people.

Then headed to Lau Pa Sat to eat SATAY! Haha. Yum yum. Here are all the pics taken from City Hall, Raffles Place then Lau Pa Sat. I will update again.

I don't know what happen to me. Seems everything went wrong. Maybe I should quit. I've been thinking. I wish I had the answer.

I'm here again. Just gave my blog a change - new blogskin. I like it. WHITE! Simple and most important I include my own photos.

Its been a long time since I cam-whored. Hehe.

I think I'm getting fatter. Haha. I'm really controlling what I eat. And of course, EXERCISE. I will not abandon my threadmile. Hehe.

Feli, Ah Hui and I went to eat Almond Pudding with Longan & Soursop Ice. So nice. I love almond. The smell is so nice. Can put me to sleep. You should try Almond Milk Tea. Its damn nice. You won't regret. Even my Makansutra expert, FELICIA CHUA loves almond. Hehe.

Today was okay. I went to AMK Hub to watch One Missed Call. Suspense. Make me scream all the time. But too bad. I only hear myself screaming most of the time. I got weak heart. So yeah. Hehe.

I wanna watch something really scary. Something that can make me scream and peep in my pants. Any recommendations?

Before edit.

After edit.

So much different, right? I edit her eyebrow shape, add a lil' bit of smokey eyes. Clear her blemishes. And, TADAA! I just miss my Adobe Photoshop. Hehe.