I just realised I'm happy being alone. All I need is my friends. When the time comes, then I will look for a special someone.

For the past almost 1 year I was attached, I realised, getting into relationship need alot of commitment. I was committed. But, things change, people change. The one that you love and dote, react in the opposite way. Where did I went wrong? I still couldn't get the answer. I was faithful, honest, loyal and loving, of coz'. But?

I wish that I got the answers. Am I too good or was I a fool? Maybe I was too good, giving my all but in the end...

Or maybe I was a fool? I was blinded by the affection and attention.

MAYBE?

I learnt alot. Goodbye, its really the end. I will miss my 1st kisser. Way too much memories, beautiful ones. And the heart-aching ones. Its all part and parcel of life.

I turn you to a better person, hope you will be like this forever. I did it, coz' I love you.

And for sure, I won't come back to you. Thanks for everything. You are not the one.

This was 1 or 2 months ago. Haha. Had a memorable time. I was eating at Suntec City foodcourt.

On wednesday, we went to celebrate Vanessa's birthday. It was fun and I enjoy my time day. Hehe. I will post the pics soon. Ouh ya, I passed my injection test. Hehe. Now I can inject anyone who's treating me bad.

For those who want to tag me, it was quite a good job. Quite only, not really. Please try harder next time. I don't understand why people like to tag others blog and create nuisance. Such a childish act. Its okay I forgive you hope God forgive you too.

I will post the pics for Vanessa's birthday and talk more abt that. I better sleep before my mum scared me to death. She like to just stand, and watch me behind my back ard this time. Anway, its 3.17am. Hehe.

Good night pretty girls and ugly boys.

Hello. I'm so in love. Hehe. With Mariah Carey. In love again.

This week has been quite a wonderful week. I failed my Intramuscular injection skills. I forgot to aspirate for blood before administering the drug. Anyway, I will be attending the 2nd attempt. Hopefully I will pass. I wanna do well and finish my ICAs presentation and get done with semestral exams. Then it'll be attachment.

I did quite ok for Bio. Haha.

Some fucking idiot fucking tagged my blog. Maybe the fucking idiot person trying to fucking pull me down and fucking disgrace myself. But its fucking okay. I'm fucking used to it. Fucking thank you to you fucker imsomaniac, thanks fucker for visiting my blog. Hehe. You're such a fucker. You fucking take that as a fucking compliment, fucker. Hehe. I fucking feel so fucking nice complementing you, fucker. Smile always.

Next week, I will be celebrating Vanessa's birthday. I heard we will be having a scrumptious spread of vegetarian buffet.

Anyway, please tag before you leave. I love to read tags. Hehe.

Hello! Its been a tiring week. Hehe. Next week, I'm having my clinical practical test and bio ICA. Hehe. I'm so excited. I hope I will do well. Wish me luck.

Hello! I'm so damn disappointed. Haiz. You know what? I will not be with any of my classmates for my IMH and polyclinic posting. I will be with other classes. Sucks.

I don't think it will be fun. I don't like working with some of the people in other classes. I don't want to mention names. But seriously, working with my classmates are much better except for a few. Haha.

I will be Bukit Batok polyclinic. So freaking far from my house. I really hate waking up early. Haiz.

Ouh ya, last Wed Dia, Ah hui and myself went to karaoke after a long time. Haha. It was fun. It would have been much better with the other princess. Hehe. I'm kinda sick of school, honestly. My timetable clashed with my repeated module everytime. Serve me right. I'm studying hard for the upcoming test. Wish me luck.

Hello people! Today I had my project meeting again. We did pharmacology. What a bad day to start with. My laptop bully me again, cannot open powerpoint files. Wanna try to be funny with me. Haiz. I surrender. I need to reinstall my Microsoft works again. Then you know what, it says cannot register coz' the product is installed exceeding the maximum no. of installation.

Wah, I really surrender with white flag. I had to call the microsoft agent. The computer operator damn sucks lor. She say can't understand what I speaking. Coz' I was suppose to read out to her the installation code. She also trying to be funny with me. So I transfer to the speaking operator, she was quite good lah. Quite huh. Not really lah. Just quite. She greet me, so nice of her. I don't she sincere lah. She did this coz' she working for her company so must uphold the reputation. LOL. At last, she is the only one who didn't try to be funny with me.

Then Alice called me, so panic. Luckily didn't get heart attack. I was really busy packing my things to rush. Then Ee chew call me. Sianz. Call my home. LOL. So, I rushed to school library. I really embarrassed, so many times late. Haiz. I'm really sorry.

What a bad day. Almost everyone want to be funny with me. Nevermind. Its okay. I forgive my laptop and the computer operater. BYE!!!

hello!

I don't think anyone will read this post lah. Coz' its like been forever since I last update. Haha. I guess all my readers have ran away.



Forgive me. I've been busy with attachments. Hehe. It was so fun! LOL. I had 2 weeks of KK paeds posting and 2 weeks of CDC. Okay, let me 1st tell you how fun is KK.



As usual, 1st day was a culture shock for me and of coz' my friends. This was my 3rd posting, but I was still blur. Haha. The overall experience is I just feel like working there when I graduate. Coz' I love kids so much. They are so adorable. And not really much things to be done. I get to feed the babies, play with them bath them. Hehe.



As for CDC, my 1st day there sucks. Haha. I just got iritated with one of the staff there. I thought she was in-charge but NO, haha. Trying to be one, I guess. The overall experience is, I feel that CDC is quite fun. The working environment is relax. I learnt alot of different diagnosis that I won't be able to find in general ward. So for me, it was an eye-opening experience. HIV positive patients just look as normal as you and I.



Hmm, so after the whole attachment, one of my patients from my previous posting at Tan Tock Seng invited my colleagues and I to his thanksgiving dinner. It was like a mini-gathering for us, student nurses.

Yeah, that's all I guess.

This is my blog, and I can do whatever I want. This photo is taken using my hp camera and is taken with consent of both parties at that time. Too bad, you cannot sue me.

Its so obscene.Yucks!

Prison break 4? LOL!

Trying to be a rabbit. And she does look like one. I thought it was a rabbit in a glance.
Look like a rocker? Haha.
Your moonlady?
Ah Meng?

ON 7th May my princesses and I celebrated our dear Jam's 19 birthday. Hehe. I must tell you, its fun! I enjoyed myself alot. We decorate cake with fruits and M&Ms. Hehe. I was the one who put M&Ms around the cake.

We had our dinner at Roma Deli - Dia's workplace. The food is nice. Really nice. I want to try everything in the menu. Haha.

After dinner, we had shesha session at Arab St. BEST! Haha. It was 1st time and I would give it another try. Maybe somewhere else. Its fun.

OMG! I went to IKEA with my darlings - Jam, Jann, Alice & Ah Hui. We had lots of fun there. IKEA items are good. I love them. There are affordable, easy to fix and most important, so many things to choose from. They got from kitchen cabinet to mirror and etc.

I like how they display their items in showroom. We had lots of camwhoring. Food is nice too!

Alice wanted to makeover her room. So she bought mirror etc. Good thing is we're under budjet and got more things that intended. I think I also want to refurnish my room. I really want a sofa bed. I saw one at IKEA, the one that I like. I've to start saving from now. Hehe.

Maybe red sofa bed. Hehe.

The showroom look so real.

I can't wait to celebrate my 3rd princess's birthday. OMG! AH JAM! Turning 19 soon. Hehe.

Ouh ya, before I end my post, I will post some class photos taken. Hehe. It was a yellow day. We had white/black, blue, red, green. More colours to come. But please don't complete the 7 colours. I can't imagine myself in PURPLE! OMG! I will look like Barney. Haha.

School life is not just about studying, project etc. For me school life is more exciting and beautiful, when you have good friends that will always be there for you no matter what. I hate picking up fights or trouble. But for somethings, I can't just keep quiet. I human, I got feelings.

To my six sweet and lovely princess,
We've been good friends for the past 1 year. Honestly, I did quite a few things that I've never done before with you guys. I surely can't forget our crab eating competition, the pillow fight where we saw the ugly side of us. Haha. The mind cafe session was so fun that I will only go with you guys. The never-ending karaoke session that show how well my cute buddy, Ah Hui can entertain us. Haha.

I never imagine that I would be quite close to six pretty girls. Haha. Maybe we had ups and downs but we were there for each other. Thanks for the laughter, the smiles, and the unforgettable moments.

Dia, I always see you as the leader of our group. Haha. I don't know why. Maybe you're good in getting things organised. I always envy your long hair since I know you. Hehe. And you change my impression to girls with braces. Haha. I always thought that girls look ugly in braces but not you. Pretty babe! Haha. Now I know I got a duet partner. You sing well. I love talking to you. You're good listener.

JAM!!! my villager. Haha. I must say she's a very good listener. I always find myself talking too much when I'm with you. Your laughter make me laugh. Haha. You're always there when I need you. So thankful. I thought you're those pretty but arrogant girl but I would say, you're bubbly, open and crazy girl. Haha. But I think Jann crazier.

Qwahqwah! Haha. This crazy girl of mine. I know you since I got into the sub-group. You and Vann were the one who keep asking me to join you guys for lunch and soon I became part of the group. I really had fun time doing my project with you. Keep laughing non-stop. I also don't know when you will stop. Haha. You're really crazy.

Alice, my dear friend. I remembered, I was quite close to you and Nyein. Then somehow, I went missing and join the group. I always stick with you guys. You're really a calm and soft-spoken person I've ever met. Ouh ya, I like your simple attitude. Hehe. You're not really fussy. You go with the flow. Hehe. I'm glad you're in our group again. And you're getting better in dressing. Sweet always.

Yan Ling! I always call you korean superstar. I also don't know why. Maybe you look abit like korean. Haha. I still can remember Jann, you and me always laugh during project discussion. Haha. You're the strong girl. Haha. Coz' you really mean what you say and don't easily get influenced. Then everytime play tai tee must surely say, "my turn huh?" Hahaha. So cute.

AH HUI!!! Haha. I like you so much. Haha. Always make us laugh with your lame jokes. You're workaholic. First I thought you're a very violent type of girl but no lah. Ah Hui is easy to get along and she know how to comfort me. I always wanted to see you with a long hairdo. When huh? Hehe. You're my buddy! Your performance is amazing. You make me fall in love with Ring ah ring ah ring. Haha. You're always with your psp or nintendo. And the best thing is we love the sims. Haha.

WAH!!! I didn't know I wrote this long. Hehe. I think I didn't leave anyone out. I will always be there for you guys no matter what. I will help if I can. I also need your guidance along the way. If there's anything wrong with me please tell me. Lastly, I would like to apologise, if I did intentionally or unintentionally wrongdoings to anyone. Just remember, I love you guys!

I'M BACK BITCHES!

Haha. Let's start of with something insane. Watch this video and laugh your shits out. I'll update a proper one soon. MUACKS!

Hey! I have another blog now, DiariHatiKu. Its in Malay and more relax. I can say that its all about me being a Malay in Singapore context. Hehe. Do visit.

I wish I wasn't born in the first place.
I wish I was dead now.

Why must I go through this for my whole life?
Why me?
Why not them?

I'm naive.
I'm innocent.

I've never wanted this.
I've never dreamt of this.

Oh God.

Why am I _____?
Why am I not like others?

Oh God.

Why?
I'm all alone.
No one.

P/S: DON'T EVEN THINK OF CALLING MY MOBILE OR HOME OR EVEN TALKING TO ME IN MSN. LET ME SAY THIS FOR THE LAST TIME, I WANNA BE ALONE. GET IT?

DEAR FRIENDS AND READERS,

I WILL BE AWAY FROM THIS WORLD. DON'T WORRY I'M STILL ALIVE. SORRY IF I DON'T REPLY YOUR SMS-ES OR ANSWER YOUR CALLS FOR THIS PERIOD OF TIME. I JUST WANNA BE WITH MUHAMMAD SHAZALI BIN SABTU, THAT'S MYSELF. I WOULD LIKE TO APOLOGIZE IF I DID HURT YOU GUYS DIRECTLY OR INDIRECTLY, WHETHER PURPOSELY OR ACCIDENTALLY.

I LOVE YOU GUYS. MUACKS!

XOXO,

SHIZARI CAREY.

Hey darlings! I miss my 7 Princess. Haha. And my BryanBoy. I'm really sorry guys. I'm so busy. I'm really busy. I've don't even have time for myself.

First, I was busy preparing for exams. Haha. And after my last paper, I start working already till today. No rest. 8hrs daily. Haha.

How I wish I could rest. But no. I don't want to rest. I wanna work till attachment. Then 1 week rest and maybe start school again. Honestly, I'm not really excited for this coming attachment. How I wish I could escape. Haha.

I wanna make my blog private lah. Some people in my links are so hypocrite. They are just putting up on act, like, "Hello Shizari! How are you?" But in deep in their heart is like, "Hey Bitch! Haha. How are you? You should be dead by now, slut. You motherfucker asshole." I don't want to name them. I don't want to embarrass them.

I'm not thinking negatively but I got my own sources, okay.

I miss my significant other. Its been a long time since we met and spend time together. I think I'm too busy. I should make time for everyone. Haha.

Okay, that's it. Just a short update. Muacks! Flying kisses for my 7 princess. Catch it!

Valentine is like so long ago. But I have to update. Haha. Me and my significant other when for dinner. I fold stars for him. 1 bottle of stars. Haha. Luckily I have my beautiful princesses to help. Haha.

It was my 1st time celebrating Valentine. Haha. I will always remember that day. Hehe. Went for a stroll. They were setting up for the Chingay Parade. At the Esplanade Park, there were fairs and shows, put up specially for Chingay. Nice. I love it.

My 1st Valentine was simple yet sweet.

The cupcakes were delicious. Mine was Oreo cream, his was Mocha. Haha. I love it.

The new haircut. Hehe. Styled by me using Gatsby moving rubber. Hehe. That's all.

Hey. Its been so long since I last updated. But who cares? This is my blog. If anyone don't like it, just fuck off. Haha. Only good people deserves to be here. I'm a friendly boy who loves everyone who loves me. So if you wanna be bitchy to me, I'll make sure, I'll burn your ass off. I'll make sure, I'll stuff hot melted dildo in your mouth since you like to use too much vulgarity to the wrong person or the wrong time.

Oh come on, am I so popular to the extend that strangers are talking about me. HAHA! Good. Keep talking about me. 'Coz one day, you will stop. I know some people have been labelling me as a boyfriend stealer and spreading my personal life stories to everyone that he know. I'm just waiting for the right time to confront you. Just wait and see. I don't need backups like you do.

For the info of you motherfucking bitches, I ain't a boyfriend stealer. Haha. When I heard about that, I laughed and felt shocked. 'Coz, why would people bother to label me when they don't know the whole story even if you're the closest to me at that point of fucking time. Haha. People break up coz they want it to happen. Not me. I'm not god. If they still love each other, then why would break up occur. I hate making enemies. I love to make friends. The more friends, the better.

I think better stop spreading and gossiping about me. Haha. Why not, just publish it at local newspaper. Wouldn't it be much better. Less effort, more people know. And when they see my face, they will like say, "Hey! Are you the boyfriend stealer? Gosh, you face are all over the papers. You're so famous. I also wanna be a boyfriend stealer, so that I can be famous like you."

Haha. Damn fucking funny. Sometimes I just wonder. Maybe people are jealous of what I have now, like I don't the perfect figure but yet I'm happier than you. Haha. So it shows that, happiness comes from the heart. What is important is the heart.

I don't need high class divas to be my friends. I just need friends who are there for me when I need them. And I have more than 1 friend who are always by my side.

And please ya, be yourself. Take care of yourself, don't bother about others. Love yourself, if not I can help you. That's all. Sorry for if this is rude.

Hey guys. This week have been quite busy for me. Study and study. Hehe. I hope for the best for my upcoming exams. Wish me, alright.

Yesterday, I went to study at Toa Payoh Library. After lunch, walk around HDB Hub. I didn't know there's a HDB-so-called-musuem. Haha. I love the place. Feel like in the National Heritage Centre. Haha. Here are some photos taken at the building.

Here is the kitchen in the 60's.

The dining table. So vintage. Hehe.

I love this. Super retro. Its the 80's.

TV in the 80's. So cute. Hehe.

Cabinet in the 80's. Look at the phone. Hehe.

Today, Feli & me studied together at NLB. We had lunch and walked to NLB. I love the achitecture of the buliding. So nice. Feli love the lift. And we went to highest storey, then to Basement. LOL. Hehe.

Hehe. That's all.

To ANONYMOUS,

Hehe. Thanks for the comments. You have the courage to insult me but why you didn't enter your name. I appreciate if you put your name. Just for your info, my looks and voice are from God. So you're not insulting me but you're insulting God's creation. I hope you are aware of that. Thanks for tagging me although I don't know who you are. Hehe.

Miss Paris Hilton, once said, "You can be considered FAMOUS, if you have people hating you. Coz' they are just plain fucking jealous of what you got."

So, thanks for hating me, coz its means I'M FAMOUS! Hehe. MUACKS!

I just wonder what I got that make people jealous. I don't look like a million bucks. And I'm not rich.